January 2010
15 posts
some things
can really fuck you up.
Jan 31st
the new me will be alright
No more talk about feelings, it’s pointless really. Pointless when people don’t ever take them into consideration. Most pointless when people don’t even care. I should stop, before I sound immature. Friday night was cut short, so no dancefloor for me. Hopefully I get to go again, but just no idea when. Some frames for now, Sunday seems really slow. I’m done. Time to...
Jan 30th
gonna run & keep the faith
Hi Jo, I know you stalk me but thanks for bringing back songs of HSM :D Keep them joops coming! It feels like I hardly get enough sleep every day, and each morning I wake up with the same old feeling, that irritable nagging nonsensical voice which reprimands that I should have hit the sack earlier. A lot earlier. And all the procrastination’s my own. Humans are funny beings, really. Momma...
Jan 28th
pulling the puzzles apart
Dad’s off to Algeria again for another three months or so. Everytime he leaves, the house seems to take on an unsettling presence. Gone are the items on his personal table and shelf, gone is the choking cigarette smell, gone is the man who, I’ve noticed, already has graying hairs on his head. Although Daddy isn’t around the house most of the time, I wonder why I can still miss...
Jan 26th
i don't know but
Hello everybody, I’m sorry for the sudden closure. Guess I’m back, will be on and off though. Blogs are always like that, aren’t they? My CNY shopping is considered done (thanks Momma :), for being always ever so willing to spend on me. I got a Topshop blouse thing, Mango bag, Converse shoes (yesssssssah) and socks, and glow-in-the-dark underwear. Which apparently doesn’t...
Jan 23rd
sorry for the inconvenience caused
From this post onwards, everything will be made private. I have my reasons, yet I will also choose not to disclose them. I believe I’m entitled to do what I want. Perhaps when I’m ready again, this blog will be re-opened. Till then.
Jan 15th
dead & gone
I think I sort of fluctuate between different kinds of mood within a day. It’s not a case of bipolar disorder (fyi, bipolar alternates between mania and depression). I don’t really know what it is. I’d pick school any day just so I can be happy. And seeing Snowy smile, of course. I’m exhausted mentally already, from all the dull lectures I’ve been having. Statistics...
Jan 12th
“Disappointment is a sort of a bankruptcy - the bankruptcy of a soul that expends...”
– Eric Hoffer, a Passionate State of Mind
Jan 11th
saturday night / sunday morning
Fuck gastric.
Jan 9th
:}
We could be laughing all day, watching senseless films and playing Hangman. And if this is the new life, maybe I should put down the past and stop wishing for what it used to be. The new life looks good to me, I hope it stays that way. JUMANJI, huh :)
Jan 8th
as if you have a choice
So what if it hurts me so what if I break down so what if this world just throws me off the edge my feet run out of ground I gotta find my place I wanna hear my sound don’t care about all the pain in front of me I’m just trying to be happy
Jan 7th
your fingertips across my skin
You know we could still be happy, even if you’re not in your shoes :} Like they say, things always have to get worse before they get better. Have some Faith, please. You’re not alone <3 I’m hungry, geez. Daddy’s coming home!
Jan 6th
all your kings & queens
Six more days to school. Maybe it’ll be good to go back. Maybe that’s one way I can forget how of little use I am. I’m awaiting my Dad’s arrival. Can’t wait to see how Snowy’s pretty huge eyes light up, can’t wait to see how she’ll go insane running a hundred laps up and down our “two-way only” house when my Dad steps in. I want to drive...
Jan 5th
“Do you know what’s worth fighting for when it’s not worth dying for”
– 21 Guns by Green Day
Jan 3rd
“I can’t win your losing fight all the time”
– Decode by Paramore
Jan 1st
December 2009
23 posts
two oh one oh
“… and I became convinced that the thick blue line was a real place - an Inbetween, where heaven’s horizon met Earth’s. I wanted to go there into the cornflower blue of Crayola, the royal, the turquoise, the sky.” -The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold The fireworks were great (why do I remember the past years being more awesome?) but I’m not in an all-optimistic...
Dec 31st